im the last person to say this about myself; but my outfit for ranbirs concert is wicked hot.
yeah i just said wicked, and hot in the same sentence. o.O
anywho. im out
ciao
its been awhile since i’ve tumblred here.
its 1:40AM, and i realized something, sitting on my bed, in my room. as i gazed looking AROUND my room, i noticed how comfortable my life is & has been. which makes me think back to how grateful i have to be to this life.
theres not one day where my parents don’t give me what i want, not trying to come from a spoiled point of view. what im trying to say is that, im so so so thankful that this life that i have, is just so amazing. i have to thank god and my lucky stars for this life.
even though we’ve had a tough time, last year wasn’t easy. financially and emotionally. my parents still provide me with so much and more than i ever need. in the moment youre all happy and then you sit back and take it all in….so lucky and grateful.
there’s food on my plate, i have my own room & bathroom, i have options. god is great.
reason why im typing this out, its because i do post a lot of the things i own on instagram, tumblr, twitter, bc it makes me happy inside & its just my way of being really grateful tbh. there’s no intention of showing off or portraying a spoiled brat. i KNOW what its life to not have things, i mean take it from the 19 year old who doesn’t own a vehicle <—me. i just have a different way of expressing my happiness and pleasures in life.
some find it through going to parties and drinking themselves in those tacky red cups, for me its quite different. i enjoy a good night out with family eating a fabulous dinner, or just strolling around a mall. thats my happiness. i’ve constantly said this and ill say it again, i dont like partying and i never will. that atmosphere is just not me.
when i see someone slurring with their words and not aware of their actions without their control it just generally disgusts me. thats just how it is and how i see it. each to their own.
but back to the point: im happy and lucky girl, im ever so grateful to god for the roof over my head.
ciao
kmell
so yesterday my ex chem professor actually recognized me sitting on the steps near class. he stopped by and asked a few questions and he was smiling, thats when i remember WHY i had such a massive hugeass crush on him…..but i wasnt a star student i barely passed the class, so HOW THE EFF did he remember me? o.O
and its not like during class he knew my name or anything at alll, so this is ulitmately confusing
moving on, he was in my dream last night. HAHAHA so awkward. thats all im saying, this shit is weird.
i hate when parents compare you to other children, side note and tip to others, youre going to be compared to other children, have crappyass friends who fuck up, so you come out shining LOLOL
i dont believe in love anymore.
i dont believe in the magic it holds to entice someone.
happy new year
kmell
its been so long since i’ve written on this tumblr! todays christmas eve, technically its already christmas. saw mission impossible four last night, tom cruise dapper as ever. oh man suri cruise, crazy lucky girl, to say “tom cruise is my dad” <—thats amazeballz
i saw don 2 today. um it was okay. i think i expected more. im so sick of priyanka chopra and her fucking bigasslips. im sorry, i sound like a bitch. wait no i am being a bitch, but shes just annoying. shes need to go.
im in the mood to type whatever that comes to my mind right now. im kinda half asleep, prob wont even remember writing this. thats the fun part right?well, im kinda over 2011, and i want it to be done with. i want fresh beginnings.
im so over it, and life general. 2011 brought so many struggles, i just can’t deal. 2011 was most PROBABLY the hardest year of my life. not even trying to be dramatic at this rate. it was fucking hard. & i dont want to go back, just wanna move forward. done and peacing out to this year.
on a different note: the only thing i really want is to go to paris and see the eiffel tower with a loved one aka male. thats my only wish in this life. pretty much, i mean to fall in love, have a family & be successful does count towards that.
kmell
i will do the same, please please keep me in your prayers as i undergo finals week. sometimes, its all thats left.
thank you <3
ciao xoxo
kmell
12:00PM: im scrolling down tumblr, to find out the most devastating news that my psychology teacher from last spring has lost her husband. i didnt know how to react to it, my heart sunk. it was just not something expected….
12:10PM: sitting in the office of my writing professor, scrolling down twitter i see arnold schwarzenegger & maria shriver’s son tweet something about an event going on tonight.
12:14PM: i take a long shot and tweet him for tonights event, and tickets for it
12:30PM: he responds
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i go into a conference with my writing professor, at this time im kinda distraught with myself, with the grade i got on my essay, but knowing that i could rewrite this essay to get a better grade, made me feel happy inside.
i suddenly look at my ipad, its flickering like crazy, only to see i have 2 tweets, direct messages from patrick schwarzenegger……………………………..
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im confused and baffled.
i walk to the math lab, more like sprint over there, to find my best guy friend sitting and studying. then i look beyond him and i see my crush sitting behind WAY WAY BEHIND….
talk about weirdass day.
anywho cutting to the cake of the story.
i guess i am now acquaintances with patrick schwar, and attended the event. met him, his mother Maria Shriver and just so many old hollywood high societies, it was absolutely crazy. i felt as if someone had thrown me into another world. from the way these people dress and talk, its just so IRREGULAR. i couldnt deal with it, but deep down i know i was excited and happy to be there, obviously i couldnt express it. i mean having the ex-governors, former wife, stand literally, an inch away from you is KIND OF RIDICULOUSLY AMAZING. not to forget, her whole family was there full on supporting her. her daughter—katherine, is absolutely gorgeous, and well her son…hahaha he is a model…and hes well, attractive as well LOL
maria shriver being partial kennedy—was so inspiring. her work and charities, i just was blown away on how someone could be so down to earth.
finally by the end of the night, AFTER all the awkward eye contact moments with patrick & side commenting, and glancing…and just WEIRD MOMENTS with him, i finally got some lady balls *awkward* and went up to him and introduced myself. at first he was a bit lost, then i mentioned twitter and THEN BAM a huge hug was given to me……….blown away by his generosity took a picture with him!
anywho
i’d love to finish this
but i have to study for bio and finish homework
night
xoxo
<3
kmell
the troubles are starting up.
here we fucking go again. its as if the same troubles happened last year are going to continue into the new year.
just to put this one out there: those who are given so much—THERES a reason. i just dont see how one can be so crude.
kmell
happy happy happy :) i spent first hour with my two best friends<3
so thankful, now im going to be off to vegas in a few hours, at the ass crack of dawn.
yayaayayaayayaayayay
ciao
kmell
